Yes, it's about my medical condition But please don't consider it to be TOO Bad or Terrible.
It might be best if you wish to read this in all prepartion since it's really a sensitive disease that even I, really had a hard time contemplating on whether to say this here or not. But thought better that you deserve to know if you've been wondering about how I'm doing. So I''l be direct after this.
During my confinement in the hospital as I said in my last Journal, I was diagnose to have Hodgkin Lymphoma, yes it's part of the infamous disease, Cancer. It's also known to be the cancer of the blood like Leukemia. So with that finally out... I want to say that from here on out, I'll be undergoing numerous medical tests and examinations. To tell you the truth, just this month I've been operated upon to get the biopsy from the lymph nodes and biopsy from my bone marrow. Which is by the way, very painful! But ha ha, don't mind that too much since I can take the pain if I think about I'll get better soon this way, hard enough.
What's really painful is the expenses.
It already costed us hundreds and thousands just for finding the cause of my syptoms and as far as I know, chemotheraphy isn't that friendly about costs either. A part from that I have to do countless of tests and examinations to monitor my health critically since Lymphoma and I guess every cancer is a senstive and fatal disease. So the doctors are very caredul and they're checking for any other symptoms and monitoring every single thing related to my disease in my whole body.
With us being not very rich is a huge problem financially since It might take millions since Lymphoma is not a common disease from where I'm from or even the whole area of Asia in general. But they say that this cancer that I have is very responsive and it can be healed if I be careful about it. That's all that matters to my parents, they say that I should just focus on getting better than to worry about the expenses.
Thankfully enough, my relatives and a lot of my mother's close friends has donated to help us in any way... it might not be much if you see the bills but if you think about it, it's already a huge help from us... Especially For me.
For now, I can't say when I'll get better since as some of you might know, Cancer is not an easy disease to fight. But I will fight it with an open heart. I can't be depressed now since it's already here so I have no regrets. Why I have it is a wonder though. In all tests that I took recently, it shows that I am actually pretty healthy and all results aside from the biopsy was actually pretty good. So they say that what caused my Lymphoma was heriditary since different kinds of Caners has been frequent in our entire bloodline being mostly half European and Asian. Diseases such as cancer is quite common. But chances of passing it down to later generations aren't that high... so I've been wondering why me, but as I saw everyone's tears and fears... and pain in seeing me like this. I thought I was thankful that they didn't got the disease instead and I had it since I know, In all my heart, that I can handle it. For them and even for you if you cared about me much as well.
I'm very grateful and thankful. Excluding my family since I already know how much they care for me and their concerns are far greater than anyone in general that wish for my wellbeing. I was quite taken aback when a lot of my relatives and friends, even people I don't know well or even complete strangers are offering their prayers and support. Some of my online friends and visitors such as yourself also worry about me and are concerned about my health as well... It's really heartwarming~ Thank you so much.
I'm sure I'll get better with all the support and prayers for my health and with enough rest and a healthy life style. I'll surely be up and around soon enough. As for those wondering about my activity around here. Well apart from my visits from the hospital. I'm technically under house arrrest because of my weakened immune system. It's a pain, but if I think about it, I actually have time to be around here.
But of course I won't be that active yet since I'm still a bit weak now and I'm adjusting to my disease so I won't be online that much. I have to go to the hospital again tomorrow. Maybe next month, I'll be back to doing normal dA activities again. But I'll reply to any query if I'm able.
For now, thanks for reading this quite long Journal and know that I'm thankful for all your concerns and worries. I'm quite exhausted and quite tired so there might be misspelings here and there in this Journal. But I'll be fine after some much needed rest. See you all later.